Wednesday, July 29, 2009

The Rush

I always feel like I am constantly rushing non stop. Seriously. In the morning it's rushing to get ready, to go to Starbucks, to drop Noah off...to get to work. You get the drill. I feel like I'm always late or in a rush NON stop.

Being a working mom has been taking it's toll on me lately. However, I'm not saying stay at home mom's have it easy. Stay at home mom's have a job just as much as I do, but they have their super cute kiddos around.

I had a break down on the way home from work the other day. I started crying and realized that part of me feels bad and thinks that I'm missing out on SO much of Noah "being little", which makes me super sad. I'll never get this time back and he isn't as little as he was yesterday and that day is already gone. The only great thing about it is that my mom or "GiGi" watches him during the day. I know it's a hard job for her, but she really loves taking care of Noah and I know he loves her too. Even if I was a stay at home mom, I'm sure a few days out of the week we would be over by Gigi's house. So him being with my mom is definitely the sliver lining. For now, it's a great set up.

Maybe, the grass is always greener?

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